Firstly..a bbig shoutout to......*drums rolling*...WEI MEI!!!HAPPY 20TH BURFDAY!!

Big gurl already looo...welcome to the twenties era which doesn't has much difference from the teens era exept maybe you can start doing more activities that were prohibited when you were in your teens.

Anyways..i got back all my test results already...so my stress level was cut down a lot over my worries that I will fail..I just can't help it..After I finish my exams, regardless of the fact that I knew I did pretty okay..i will still worry..oh yeah..let me tell you what happened last night..TVBS on Astro always have their entertainment news at 11.00..so I watch lor..after the first advertisment break..there is suddenly this tarot card reader called Tiffany (I think!) who kinda like gives you a topic..yesterday's one was "Who is your enemy?".Then she lays out five cards for you and you have to pick the card that you like the most..simply pick also can..then she will overturn the card and explain to you what it means..i picked card E..and when she overturned the card..she explained that the biggest enemy for people who pick this card is they themselves..wah..so true..i believe that many times..my enemy is my ownself because I was borned with low confidence level and high worry hormones..but i think there is pretty nothing much i can do about it..Now don't go saying "you should do something about it..see a counsellor or something or do things that takes your mind off it".....it just won't work..even when i do the things i like..when this certain scene comes..i will start thinking and worrying again..i guess that's just they way I am..

Therefore..guys..sorry if i bothered you too much with what you called needless worrying and try to bear with me..people aren't just perfect..and that goes the same for me..

*poof*

Review of this week...

1) got my 20th burfday present from Kit Mun and Y ee Li...it has been 2 months since my burfay so i was kinda surprised to get it..but nevertheless..i am happy to receive it...the present was a set of earrings..dangling type with those big circles..not really comfy with them yet but might get used to it..the earrings suit some of my clothes and my mom asked me whether she can borrow them..lol!anyways..thanks guys!!

2) made a vow on tuesday to study my international finance during my thursday six hours break..but instead i went for the fantasy makeup done by Ee Ling for the Maybelline thing..i think i am getting addicted to going for make up sessions by Ee Ling coz she makes me look good..what i felt guilty was when Kah Mun was getting her make up done..i could have studied..took my book out already and Kit Mun took hers out..and we started to...sing songs..we came out with a letter and we had to sing songs with the letter inside the lyrics..30 minutes went down the drain like that...singing songs...once in a while we will stop to study but that probably lasted 30 seconds..then we started playing again..sad..then my make up time came...i got the winter fantasy look..i posted the pic up here or.you can all refer to Wei Mei's multiply site for more..lol..like advertising myself....i really liked it coz it suited my face and i really looked cool in it which brings out my personality..Kah Mun got a forest fantasy.. and she went out of the room to the outside grounds to take pictures...seriously..looks like she was taking her wedding pictures...hiding behind trees and climbing them..what was missing was the groom..Kit Mun got a rock look which made her look really wild...suits her la...all that make up took 3 hours...so where was the other 3 hours?camwhoring session..at least me,Wei Mei and Ee Ling went to take our lunch..but the other 2....camwhored the whole day..even skipping lunch..and they say i camwhore a lot...look who is talking..overall..i think there were 300 pics(including the deleted ones) taken on them..dun misunderstand..probably around 200 pics were them..i only had maybe 50 pics..tsk...tsk...

3)international finance midterm..okler...i think it was the best mid term i had..but..let's see the results..

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ARGGHHH..I am very the dead meat...my midterms went super badly..i couldn't finish both papers, macroecons and stats also..not exactly dun finish la..got finish la..but very rushed work..i am pretty sure that when i press the calculator..it will be all wrong coz when i rush..i usually get all these weird weird numbers and i dun have time to double check it..wahh...gonna fail...*sob*..no eyes to see...

this week has been the worst for me...internet connection is not going fast( TM NET!!!gimme back my RM 88 that I paid every month for my 1 MB connection!!), screwed up midterm..lose my temper sometimes..hopefully the next week will be brighter...the only thing that keeps motivating me in a certain week is the tvb drama "The Academy"..quite a nice show and storyline..dun really have a three way relationship(thank god!)...it's just that these character dun really dare to express their feeling to the girls that they like..at least i can learn how to express my feelings to a guy next time after watching this show..i hope...this show is ending on the 9 th Oct and will be then continued by "Healing Hands 3"..ARGHHH....the drama with the most three way relationships..i watched it before..and i stopped halfway..It can never beat Healing Hands 1 where Ada Choi is inside....aih..no more drama to watch already on tv...have to find other entertainment..

Next Saturday...on the mooncake festival..where everybody will be celebrating it..i will have to do my FIN 340 exam..the subject that I don't understand the most...a bit worried but..aih..still have to go through it..oh yeah...another change in me..i have stopped reading "Seventeen" and have gone on to "Cleo"..suprisingly..i like some fashion inside there but there are too some outrageous fashion that you can't wear it on the streets..hmm..maybe my shopping spree on clothes will began very soon..good sign or bad sign?Let's analyze:

The good:

1)I will probably look better in my new outfits rather than my striped,plain tshirts.

2)I will finally have my own wardrobe and no need to share with my mom..no more of those "Girl ah!Did you take mummy's pink t-shirt?"

3) I will be able to join the group's conversation more often rather than listen dumbly to all the fashion info..

The bad:

1)Will probably have no more pocket money and will have to eat bread for every lunch..

Hmm..the bad is only one point and the good has three points..but the one bad point is equivalent to three bad points..lol..so it still balances up..i dun wanna eat bread for every lunch..wah!!therefore..my conclusion is....see first lah..until i see something that i really like..hopefully my mom will pay for it coz i am pretty sure she will borrow it anyway..

*poof*

Better blog this to be a future reminder to me..Today..Kit Mun and I went to Midvalley during our 6 hour break...everything was okay until the leaving time..I drove my car to the exit sign but I thought that I accidentally missed the turning..so I decided to reverse instead of going to the other exit which is further..I checked my back mirror and then put my gear into reverse gear,and started reversing while looking at the mirror...then I took my eyes of my back mirror for a while and the next thing I knew was that my sensor was beeping quite madly..wait..not beeping..instead..hmm..how do I explain this?You know when someone dies and the pulse machine just give this beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.....yeah...that is how my sensor sounded like indicating that I was pretty near something..so I immediately hit my brakes and when I looked into my back mirror..I saw a 50 something year old man pushing a trolley..not those supermarket trolleys but those kind of construction trolley..and he was standing right at the back..I could have knocked him down!Where did he come from?!I just took my eyes of the back mirror for one second and he is suddenly standing there...but I think it was partially my fault coz I was actually reversing quite fast..but shouldn't he be looking before crossing?anyway...as he walked past me..he gave me that cold glare and I quickly apologized..glared at me for a while more and continued walking...and after that..I was hit by a trauma...it was so bad that it made me actually believed that I hit the old man when I actually didn't...more like hallucination..ahhhhh!!!

Moral of the story: Don't reverse so fast and never take your eyes of the the back mirror..

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Wah....it has been a long time since I blogged...April till now which is 4 months..and now I am back to blogging...dunno why i just suddenly felt like blogging..mayb e it's because of the influence of friends..coz all of them are blogging and some even wanna start blogging..so..might as well blog la..changed my blog skin and repaired all the links bringing you a totally new and fresh page..okay..so..it has been four momths and looking back at all my posts..i feel that maybe a few personal stuff of me has changed...let me analyse them one by one..

1)Last time: I wear my sports shoes wherever I go..even outings with my family and friends..
Now: I wear sandals(2 inches!) whenever I go out with my family..I still wear sports shoes
when I go out with my friends though..something that is yet to be improved.

2)Last time: I will not even wear a bit of makeup on my face..not even for my friend's sake..
Now:I wore make up and even became a model for Maybelline(fake model)..how cool is that
huh?

3)Last time: I never liked salad.
Now: Whenever I go to Pizza Hut..I must add on a salad...must be the influence of the 2
Carmens.

4)Last time: I never really liked to pose in front of the camera...If i pose..I would just probably
give a smile.
Now: I camwhore like crazy..as long as I feel bored..I will take Wei Mei's camera phone and
start taking pictures of myself acting cool...OMG!

5)Last time:I don't watch my weight and am immune to fatness
Now: I am so scared of getting fat..I watch my eating portion..hmm..come to think of it..this
symptom only appeared after I came back from Taiwan..I must have felt
threatened there..

6)Last time: I curse a lot..
Now: I have cut down a lot..though i do swear inside me..but..verbally..someone has taken my
position with the familiar saying of "What the Hell?!"

7)Last time: I act like a tomboy all the time...in fact..to be more harsh on myself..exactly like a
boy..
Now: I sometimes maybe act like one but according to some reliable comments from certain
people..I am more girly now when I speak and I act more like a girl..to be more harsh..I
am downright "hiow"

Hm...I guess that is pretty much of how I changed over the past four months..quite a major improvement if you ask me but maybe to o ther people..they may think it is a small matter..my mission now is to overcome my fear for skirts...maybe this will happen when I start dating and when my boyfriend tells me "Hey..I would like to see you in a skirt"..maybe only then I will start considering..LOL!

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ZZzzz....

LOL...This blog seems so abandoned..even my chatterbox is dead..but I am not going to renew it..lazyler..I even wonder does anyone comes to this blog anymore since I don't even visit my own blog anymore. In fact, i don't know what to blog anymore.My life has no surprises,just a plain old boring life where I hardly go out with my friends.I like to stay at home 24-7.Maybe it's because the comfort of my home..so comfortable till I just don't wanna get out of it.Even my mom says I should go out more often.Hmm..maybe I would when I suddenly feel that my house in no longer a comfort zone for me which I doubt will happen.

What to say here?See..my life is just so boring that I got nothing interesting to tell..except if you wanna know about my assignments all that..but I doubt u all want to since most of ur nicknames I see on my Messenger are cursing about assignment or university activites.Or maybe I should start cursing about my assignments too but I just can't.I dunno what is there to curse about since I have to get it done anyway..might as well save my breath and sing more Jay Chou songs.THAT'S LIFE for me..haha!boring rite?off to continue with my boring life..

*POOF*

Half of The Spastics Are .....gone.....

It's been a long time since I have blogged due to the fact that I was so busy with my exams..You all should know that when exams are here...there is no night and day for me...The whole time is just studying..So...that was the past..now it's the holidays for a measly two weeks...well..better than nothing I suppose.3 of the Spastics has left to Australia..thought I don't really show it..I do feel quite sad.I know...the fact is weird that I dun usually show my sad emotions.For example..when people leave me..I won't like hug that person or like say "I will miss you or anything".I will just say a common goodbye and wave.And people will start thinking that this girl has no feelings for that person leaving me for a long half year.The truth is if I start hugging people and saying " I will miss you" and all that.. tears will actually start rolling down my cheeks..I really don't like that feeling..I will just stuff it all inside me until it is full and it will just burst one day...so far..it is half full..there is still a long way to go.Anywayz...to the 3 Spastics in Australia...Good Luck there!Maybe one day I will come and visit one of you..But probably by then you would have come back to Malaysia and have started a courier while I am still hitting the books.But..if fate has it...we will meet one another...

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